Depression and Surgery?

2009-12-04T00:22:00.002-05:00

So today I just got diagnosed with Depression. Not a lovely thing this illness. It affects not just your mind, but your feelings, your emotional state, your physical state. Your friends and family. It hurts. My mom came with me to the doctor's today, and she asked him if he had any idea as to what might have set this off. He suggested my cochlear implant surgery might have, because it forces the body through so much turmoil and with me, it was faster than the average. I was up and running before another patient who's surgery was the same day as mine. He thinks maybe the social pressures kept pushing me and me losing my job was the last straw.

I'll admit, the past year or so, I've blamed my hearing loss for everything. And I thought by now I would have accepted my hearing loss.. I guess not.

Not really sure what else to put. I'm hoping things start to get better. Right now, I need to get through this.

SIGH.

The Silence May Be Golden...

2009-11-28T02:36:00.002-05:00

It's silent..

I can hear the wind.

The dog whining.

I can hear the major highway,

Cars speeding over the speed limit.

I couldn't hear this over a year ago. I'm amazed at what my Cochlear Implant has allowed me to hear. It's been amazing. I can hear rain, crickets.. I can hear my little cousin talk and babble. I can hear a mother crying when she realizes her baby is not a baby anymore. I can understand people. I can carry a conversation. I can watch TV at a "normal" volume. I can teach others.

A little background about me;

I am 21 years old. Have profound hearing loss, progressive since I was 4. Have had hearing aids since then. In June of 2008, I recieved a cochlear implant in my left ear as there was very little hearing left and I hadn't worn a hearing aid in that ear for many years. I love learning and was raised oral but learned ASL when I was 15. I love the language. I also love teaching. When I did a presentation for my college program about hearing loss, I forgot all about my fear of public speaking and I did amazing. I also have issues with my moods.

This blog is going to be about me. My life. My troubles. My fears, hopes and dreams. My hearing loss.

This is about me.

A View Of A Subdue World

Depression and Surgery?

The Silence May Be Golden...